From Flaws to Flows

Last night as I was journaling, I realized I had to get back to my old ways at work. I tried so hard to remember the schedules I used to have in place for myself long time ago. I was a very disciplined creator, that's how I managed to grow in all the different stages in my career after all. So today, the plan was to get back to basics. Forgetting all about the house, the things that need my attention, the things that need mending and fixing, all the things that could be improved, all the imperfections around me and inside me, and all that is outside of me that I can not control, and focus instead solely on creating and making. Work was to take over all else, and the task for today was to get as many pieces finished as possible - as opposed to working on different stages for different pieces simultaneously, or even starting anything new - which is the only way I have been functioning lately, by so doing, wreaking havoc on my system.

Although it's mostly physical, making jewelry really requires a lot of mental sharpness and presence. My mind hasn't been doing well for the majority of this year, so I knew I had to stay watchful and alert of my mind, and direct it and lead it whenever it wanders. At the start of the day, the progress was very slow; my mind would race, I would feel so overwhelmed with choices and options, and other times I would simply freeze, not knowing what I was doing at all. But then, thankfully, bit my bit, my body remembered, than my mind followed, then my heart, it all came back to me and I felt centered. As I was beading, wire wrapping, linking, chaining, and going through my inventory of stones and findings, I felt at peace and in my element again, like the good old days. I managed to connect with the aspect of me that used to work wonders under pressure, even when I had no experience in the filed, some 15 years ago...

I finished many items, worked with colorful stones and silver connecting pieces that I had made back in early summer. Although I had many aches in my body by the end of the day, but as the sun was setting, I felt true bliss. 

This jewelry making journey has always been a gift that keeps on giving, and I am so very grateful I am able to bring myself to align with its creative energy flow once again.